From the moment we’re born we are faced with choices. These choices make up who we are. Choices such as choosing a new job, deciding on marrying the man you love, or moving to a new state. These choices make up who we are.
When I was younger I never imagined my life being the way it is now. I actually never really remember what I pictured my life to be like when I was 23. I guess I could see myself being married to the man I love, with two children, living in a big city, working my dream job. But those are big dreams and truthfully I was always one to dream big.
From when I was in elementary school I made some choices that I regret. Choices that have affected my future growing up. Middle school came and went and in high school it couldn’t seem to end. High school was a nightmare, I dreaded waking up in the morning having to face those people then I called my friends. Many I knew, truthfully weren’t. The most popular kids, they were the worst. The choices I had to make to try to get their acceptance wasn’t worth it, and in the end I never ended up getting it. The choices they made to treat me like an outsider worth nothing more than a piece of dirt. But you know what, it may have taken me 23 years to realize it, but I forgive you. Those choices you made, those tears you made me cry, those foul thing you made me do. I forgive you.
To those boyfriends that all they did was use me and make me do things that I can’t even think about without wanting to puke. Those boyfriends that make my trust issue with my soon to be husband, be so hard that 6 years later it still affecting us. To those boyfriends that made me lie, cheat and steal. I forgive you. Because those choices that you made, made me make the choices I made, making me who I am today.
Of course, I am not living the fantasy life but I’m happy. At 23, I have accomplished much more than I could have ever dreamed. Of course, making the right choice in the beginning would have probably led me to many different places. But that’s not what I want, because every choice I made lead me here.
Soon I’ll be marrying the man I have come to know and love, after being with him for 6 years. Soon I will be beginning a new life, at a new job, bringing a wide variety of different opportunities. Of course, I’m not doing this in a big city, or at my dream job but as long as I’m happy I think that’ll work.
In life we are given choices and from the moment we are born to the moment we die, the choices we make, make us who we are.